People who meet me now cannot believe I was ever shy, yep I was … I was
also self-hating on many levels, insecure, felt stupid, could not keep the pace
with my fellow classmates … plus until my second year in high school I was a “bit
chunky” so I had body image issues … and it did not help that my two older
brothers were super smart achievers in life … I was “cute” that was all I had
going for me at least that is what I thought back then …I forgot to mention the
“mean girls”, yes they existed back then as well as now… well I was like
Rudolph the red nose reindeer never allowed to play in their games … so it was
lonely and isolating …
On some level that insecurity never goes away, from inside of you no
matter your age … the best you can do is learn to manage it in life… this takes
time to do … self-confidence grows slowly inside of you … don’t try to rush it
… let it first take root deep in your soul …there is a saying “fake it until
you make it”… many people are faking it in life, they are still trying to fine
that self-confidence inside of themselves …
As a kid this seems like an impossible thing to do, you are processing so
much in life and where you fit into the world… the ever old… ever new… Question
… “Who am I” … let me answer that for you … you are gift from God a remarkable
human being who was placed on this planet to enhance it and to make a
difference … you may not be feel like you are but you are … the mystery in life
is we will never know… just how much our mere presence, makes a difference in the life of others … just to see your face,
hear you voice is lifting someone up today … if not for you, they would be sad and lost … that is how
important you are to all of us … “just be” … and life will figure itself out around
you …
As for the adults with the inner doubts and lack of self-worth … such
feelings are both a grace and a curse … A grace it will keep you humble a curse
for you also have meaning and destiny to fulfill, which was created just for
you … at times you have to walk in blind faith … just keep moving forward and
you will reach the finish line …
